LRAB Chapter 483 I'm jealous of you
Chapter 483 I'm jealous of you
This house is filled with too many memories. If nothing unexpected happens, I will never leave...
The wind blew into the room, just like it did a long time ago. This time, it did not blow away the petals, but only slightly blew the flowers, and the flowers fully released their beauty...
My hair was also blown by the breeze, which I liked very much. After washing my hair, I let the wind blow my hair and waited for it to dry on its own.
It’s a very gentle breeze. If I had to make a metaphor, it’s as warm as a sunflower.
It seems that everything can be compared to flowers... My eyes drifted to a farther place, recalling every blade of grass and every tree here, recalling every detail here. This place has not changed much. I only packed a few things and took them away...
"Do I still think about that time now? I will still recall the good times...My biggest worry at that time was what to eat today?" I was so stupid at that time. I didn't choose to pursue anything. All I wanted was to live a simple, happy and happy life like an ordinary person.
The only thing I wanted was enough money. As time went by, I began to desire wisdom. Now, my wisdom has been recognized...
He picked up the Eye of God and placed it in his palm. In the kingdom of the God of Wisdom, possessing the Eye of God itself was a recognition of wisdom...
I lay back on the bed, leaving the window open, hoping to have a good sleep.
What kind of dream will it be this time? I open my eyes in a dream, but what I see are memories.
I saw myself when my child just got married, myself having dinner with him for the first time, myself smiling at each other, myself accepting flowers...
Every time I want to touch him, I pass through him. The more I want to get closer, the farther I can reach him...
I tried desperately to catch up, but failed again and again. Finally, I fell to the ground, crying softly...
The self in the dream is so sentimental. When was that self of mine?
The self that was chasing was not myself. When I walked over, I realized it was myself who had just celebrated my birthday ten years ago.
"Nolinshi Eldana..." The name was whispered softly. The other party seemed to hear it, raised his head and looked around.
"That's not my name... I'm so scared. Why is this place so much scarier than I imagined? I'm so scared..."
Like a child... I felt a numbness in my chest, and this feeling spread, which was a precursor to tears flowing.
So he squatted down, trying to get closer to the other person, who was lying on the ground crying quietly.
But the hand still passed through the other person, just as the other person passed through himself.
When he reached out his hand again, he helped the person up, but he was not the one helping the other person up.
"Why are you here? How about the birthday present I prepared for you? To be honest, if possible, I don't want you to cry again... It would be even more heartbreaking to have tears in these beautiful eyes."
I felt like a piece of my heart was being dug out...
"I miss you so much! You left me all alone in this world. I'm so scared... so lonely. I don't want to go to a strange city alone, but I don't want to be here. I have too many memories here. If I continue to live here, I will be driven crazy by the memories of the past. I'm sorry, I didn't protect you well. If I could be stronger, if I could control the power earlier, if I could..."
"You always seem to take all the blame on yourself. In my opinion, you are innocent. Even if I swear on my family, it doesn't matter. In my opinion, you are an innocent victim. Why would someone say such bad things to you? Why would someone hurt you, an innocent person?"
"I……"
"Please forget me. You still have a long life ahead of you... My life has come to an end. Don't be unhappy because of me."
I can even smell the coldness of ice and snow on the other person...
“Sister!” The one who chose to bend down and hugged the child who just flew towards him, “Forget me too! After all, I’m not one of those characters that needs to be remembered for a very long time. Characters like me should be completely forgotten after just a few chapters. After all, I don’t seem to have anything outstanding. But… I’m lucky, because I met sister…”
"Sister is also very happy to meet you, to meet you who are as beautiful as flowers, to meet you who are as self-reliant as weeds, to meet you who are as warm as the sun..."
"To me, my sister is the warm sunshine! Although I don't like him very much, if my sister likes him, of course it doesn't matter! As long as she likes him, it doesn't matter!" It has always been like this, a warm child...
"Let's not separate anymore, let's stay together forever..."
I used to be so cowardly that I always liked to respond to my life with tears.
But it is this kind of life that is like an ordinary life. It is this kind of life that makes people feel happier.
Life is so long that people will always suffer, be unhappy and sad. At this time, even if it is of no use, just cry. When the tears fall from the corners of your eyes, you will feel that all the pain can be temporarily forgotten.
After all, what you need to pay attention to when crying is that just crying is enough. When the tears have flowed away, it means you should face life better.
"Congratulations, you are happy..."
I said this with a bit of gnashing of teeth. I never thought that I would be jealous of my past self. I was happy at that time... Anyone who is jealous even of himself is really a lunatic. I have always understood this.
I understand that I am a madman who is jealous of myself. I understand that I am not what people call a normal person. I understand that I desire happiness but I dare not have it. I am a contradictory person.
I opened my eyes and found myself back in the lonely room again. I subconsciously reached out to the head of the bed, but there was no water prepared for me.
……
I stared at the ceiling for a long time before the sky outside began to get light.
Nuolinxi slowly got up and sat on the bed for a long time. Time passed by minute by minute, and she just looked at the dark sky in the distance, letting the wind blow freely through her hair.
"It's so beautiful..." The sun has slowly come out, shining on this dark place, as if all the pain and sadness have left with the rising of the sun. When the sun rises again, hope will come again...